On the eve of my gap year

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“The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.”~Socrates

Tomorrow my youngest child starts school. There is sadness that my baby is growing up and all that, but it is also a bit like Christmas Eve.

I’m having a gap year.

I know that traditionally it is used for high school graduates taking a year off to travel or what not before starting university. But I’m claiming it to describe what I am doing this year: not going back to work despite both my children heading off to school so that I can discover myself.

Sounds a bit airy fairy. Maybe it is.

When I first set out to have kids and be a stay at home mum I never imagined how tired, crummy, grumpy, zombie, frustrated and generally worn down I would become over the 6 years that followed. We all know there is boundless joy, laughs and surprises with kids, but kids are yin and yang, up and down, highs and lows. All these combining forces are like physics. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. Especially on me.

I have changed.

I’m going to find out who this new person is, take her out for a run, do some yoga with her, get her to take some photos, paint a picture with her and then see what kind of career moves she wants to make in 2016.
It’s going to be quite the year, huh?

I couldn’t do this without the support and encouragement of my husband. He’s THE BEST.
I hope one day I can be the breadwinner and he can take a gap year.

Here is me, post mountain hike with the kids, post dinner making, post 6 years of full on, 24/7 motherdom……

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8 responses »

  1. This is the best idea ever. .. I wish I had thought of it last year and changed my mind set accordingly. … instead I spent the year feeling guilty for achieving little and punishing myself for not being who I thought other people believed I should be. …. insanity. .. so. .. Having learned my lesson I hope. .. perhaps I shall repeat my gap year….. Wouldn’t be the first time. …. Well done you and best of luck

  2. This is a great idea. … wish I had done it last year. … Just the right mindset to avoid the guilt and disappointment I put myself thru … I’m so going to repeat my gap year and get it right. …. Well done you and good luck. .. Or break a leg. .. Or whatever you say to encourage gap years.

  3. That whole bit about being “grumpy, frustrated and worn down” resonates in my world. I’m not really taking a gap year as such though I’m already feeling a little chirpier knowing my baby is going where he needs to go and I’m heading in a nice direction too (starting with a few wines at lunch tomorrow)!

  4. Fabulous idea Katie. I hope that you find Katie this year. Not ‘mum’ or wife, just you.
    Yes, you’re husband is the best and you guys make a wonderful team.
    Your words resonated with me also….
    Looking forward to hearing about all your adventures this year! X

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